[Initially published on Jan 9, 2018.]
I hear this sentence a lot. In fact, I used to say it all the time “I don’t want to have kids”.
But guess what? I changed my mind… and I did it when I was 28 years old. I can’t tell you why, but I would find myself longing for a baby.
The truth is: yes, she changed me, so what? 3 years ago I did not want to have kids, and now here I am thinking about the next one. I think it was actually 3 years ago that my motherhood instincts - whatever these are - kicked in, and I have been the happiest ever since.
True motherhood is not for everyone, but apparently it is for me. I am not saying it’s all fairy tales, because most of it probably isn’t, but what is good compensates for ALL THE REST.
She is literally my everything and that is why I always try to cherish and record special occasions. I have been a fan of minimalism, but photographing memories and printing them still gets the best of me: I cannot and won’t let go of these! I do guilty for not saving the environment with all this photography thing, and maybe I will change my mind on this too at any point in the future, but, for now, I will keep chasing that l perfect light with my baby girl.
Needless to say, if you are like me and are having mixed feelings about being an environmentalist and/or minimalist VS being a film photographer and/or printing your special moments, let me tell you that IT IS OK. We do what we can.
Until next time**